feind

Fiend

Blinking trying to catch

Clear sight I sin

Foggy I might just sleep

No I think ill weep

Wait

If I sleep then weeping won’t invade then

I reluctantly awaken

I fake a smile or two for fear

And i drink hope

I cope these days with

That salty drink

I gulp it like I am walking through a desert

A sandy acrid desert

Give me another drink

I think it helps

I like the sound it makes going down

My frown turning right side up

It takes me coping to swallow hope so big these days

I am choking on my memory vomit

chug hope fast swallow enough

to quench

I’m buying this round

Gulp gulp

Another vowel please

Spelling the words I crave

P_ac_  _t  L_st

Clue?

To stave off the doldrums and sorrow

I require examination

I perspire in anticipation

Where is that sanity invitation?

I misplaced it somehow

I pay attention long enough to master a thought

Oh I remember the game

Picking up my shame I gather it fast

As I want no one to see

Me tumble and fall

Gathering hard shards of trouble laying all over

Like tiny rubble no one can see but sharp

Enough to cut me

Up

To another place

Ok

One where my face is up and all the

Things around me are a light evening summer

Supper for her hungry soul

I gulp that down to

looking for gods’ spirit

Shattered and torn my face dropped beauty’s cadence

Stopped me dead long ago

She is my friend

She taught me to see the bright side of life

Her naivety bought me

That one way ticket to a fall

A fettering mind shattering at a predators feast

Splattered

Sprawled out vulnerable

And she played there

In it all

dilation

I had my eyes dilated recently and I have to say…it was so freaky. It was the first time I had ever done that. I felt all trippy and shit. Thought I would describe it in a poem…here goes.

Dilation

When she-doc shone bright the light

I immediately felt peri fright

I wasn’t quite sure to run or fight

The glare and the frozen stare she

Requested so mechanically

Suggested none of the impending insanity

I was under auric duress

Eclipsed lighted sparkly stares

My perception was momentarily incorrect.

I must confess

My thoughts were a bit naked in my defense

A twit with an unfocused stare

In my sharpest survival wit

I shared my best sarcastic flare

I saw light, neon pink and bright

My quandary was daylight

My brain was awry mightily

Rambling I profess I was a trippy mess

Clandestine Thoughts taking flight

                                                                         

A pleasure grip of illusory treasure                                             

I grasped momentary psychedelic measure                      

Illuminations were hot cherry and                                                 

Observation blurred the lines between

Blinking prepensely and simultaneously

My mind on the brink of lunacy

I felt illustriously hammered

When I walked the room rocked

I rolled with the punches in laid back surrender

While my mojo was burdened with mental crunches

I was on a visual careen in pictoric measure

Enamored with my hallucinatory rainbow frock

I saw misty frost on the edges of a mocked dizzy room

Disconnected in familiar mental sensitivity

My feeble brain was tarred and feathered

Secretly I swaggered in and staggered

In fantastic optical pleasure

Mishaps immediately unfamiliar

Loaded with hilarity it was adventure

At the very least

I was saint and sinner

Two acquaintances sharing an illustrative feast

To bad it was transitory because

It had the best of me

Quasi-Vision failure is an entertaining beast

An elixir called acid

An elixir called acid

This

Journey

An elixir

Called acid

Water is a drink

Wicked wet and wild

I sit in the colored waves of

Sunshine’s flask and bask as I blink

In the waves of the oceans sound

Waking my spirit I am riding

The wavy hot rays to the

Days of old When I

Was new and you

Were you I see

The end is

So far

From

Here

And I

Am standing

Alone in this new

Ray of sunkist waves

I see and crave desirously

Pleasure is pain to you and

Yours is the wave I crave today Enter

My heart and stay it is safe and soundless

It has no bounds and It is sound sleep on a

Noisy plane in pain when I enter heart this

Time In silent life I see The Sea so calm

Love seeps into your cracked heart

And in enters the wave of rage

Pending the disaster I see

In you I am free In you

You in me Wine in

My heart I am

Starting to

See

Someone

New and Antique

In stature and worth

Beautiful disaster seem

To attract the plaster that builds

The wall I can’t seem to break down I

Seamlessly pound the edges seemingly

Feeling like The right of my mind so my left

Will taste the cake crumbs you offer me

Unrefined Baked in sweet swine

Pearls fill my heart wisdom

Smarting and parting

The winds of

Times to

Come

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a cry is heard

A Cry Is Heard

Superhuman I see a superhuman

Standing in the gateway

Loving as if

A tragic tomorrow did not exist

Love is a trader of lust for longevity

A crusader for losing a limb

And being distraught

When out of a blue sky

A cry is heard

By god

And weaves of wings and fingers

Collect your heart and send it reeling to

Another luxury you seem to be able to afford

Currency is a lush green meadow

To see the stars in

Because the taste is so delicious

Golden hot and fiery red

Your sixth charka desires

Balance

And feeding

Posing for another warm breath

And just another beginning

You steam the shower with no hot water

Spending lust currency as if it were a river

Running through trembling groin

Pillaging through shared memories

I see love as infinity

And divinity

And serenity

Healing and hoping for the next life

To find you again

Covetous

Covetous

WITHERING HEIGHTS AMID

A TIGHT BLAST OF LIGHT

IT MIGHT IGNITE THE ego I FLY

Floating and swaying like a lazy spy

Across the allied land

I stand bold sold to claim it full

WITH MY ENERGY SO RAW

FLAMES BURNING sky HIGH

IN THE fantasy I BURN TOPS OFF OF

Purdy DAMES egos erect

Like phallic towers of power

DIVAS SO HIGH I AM STIMIED BY hasty gawking at

Dames I secretly adore in envious reciprocation

ANGSTY AND SACCHRIN SWEET

I SEE THEIR FEATS AND WANNA BEAT

THEM TO the home plate

With my baseball cleats

Jealous blood staining my heart dirty

Keeping my abiding dueling MIND IN FLOW

I eagerly PUT MY ego IN self STORAGE

IMPLORAGE in THE BOUNDS OF

Electric shock WHEN God’s treasures kick MY Purring

BURR UNDER the SADDLE

I ride fire Stinging bold I will never quit

 STANDING TALL

With phallic PRICES

I reluctantly PAY

Today WHEN I PLAY WITH YOUR

Lightening DRAW

I sit in this stall hiding

Noticing your small kite flying fantasy too

Tiny really and briny are their brains I eagerly watch

As I stay in fantastical play spying

Selecting swatches of silky fabric

All for the fantasy kite

I stay

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bood lust

BLOOD LUST

Blood lust your thirst for mine

Quench my heart and soul

Tastes like fire hot and nasty

Freeze my whorish passion

Meld into my angst

For your taste

I am strong and sensual

Teasing and taunting with Eyes and lips

Burning inside I want to devour your soul

I want your taste in my mouth

Tangy and musky

For our plenty I am spent with your spirit

Velvet you are feeling my striation

I am yearning for your intensity

Inside me melting with creamy pulses

You are mending and shaping my desire

I am spitfire and wild child

Day and night I am yours

Suckle and seep with your scant touch

Teasing tasting my plentiful liquid passion

Smell the fire and

Taste the aroma

I am Tight and tempting

Smooth phallic fireworks Work pulsations

Addicted to fervent explosions

Now I am your servant

Slave if I have to beg

You want me to beg?

I am willing and able

Saturate me and

Taste my heart

I offer nothing more than eternity

I am yours Open and willing

To play the game of passionlust

Love reborn as your desire

We Devour and loose control again

And again

As I engulf your special purpose

To meld and mold me into your

Bereaved concubine

I am spent…

C2009sherri

The Devil Slaps back

And when she thinks of it


The tears roll down her cheeks

And into her mouth salty

A wet full smack would’ve definitely been better

Than this mask



Further down that long hard row…..



She was on a crash and burn

No remorse or reaction

Her mind was on a numbing course of action



Sitting and staring at the horizon

On unemotional oblivion she rode

into a freshly painted sunset

On the sweaty back of recourse

That fucking she devil

She claimed as her avatar



She rooked from afar

Wishing upon a shiny synthetic stars

She dropped her tears into a plastic jar

Saving them for a later spar

With herself and a crashing car

She felt she didn’t need them then

Looking back wide and far



Now as she plows the row she hoed

Such deep furrows allow the deepest roots of sorrow

To take ahold and become consequently bold

They’re dampened by the tears exceeding

Inside that unbreakable jar



She is told to let go

Let them fall where they may

Open it freely let your insides out



But her heart feels so icy cold to the touch

Some days she just can’t shout it out enough

She just sits and cries and such

Telling analytical blah blah blahs

All plushly sorrowed for her stored up tears

And fears her mind sits in perpetual description



Some don’t recognize their own heavy heart its clear

And she’s lucky she’s told

Unharnessing those woes in anticipation bold



All sewn together by razor wire

She can’t move entire parts of herself without fire

Via a marionette string manipulation theory attire



At times so she is fucking tired

She covets being a white feather in the breeze

Blowing free here and now

But her negative fringes help drown her dirty and

Wallowing around in her black stained tears

Moved her soulless under spiritual attack bathed in fear



She neglected her very own weary soul when

The she devil drowned her in

Proverbial dirty richness

Dripping and draining her energy

Drop by drop it all added to

A fade to nothing emotional exhaustion



It developed ignorant slack and

That’s when the blackest of black tears

Hustled her fears right outta here

Slippery crawling down fleshy dank cheeks



Reluctantly trading limp for peaceful

It yielded from her wearily by the hour



This present Powerlessness feels golden

As she stands here holdin’ her heart

For all to see vulnerability

Emboldened by intimate conceding day by day

The she devil in her is freed



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